I haven’t written a blog post in months. Quite frankly, I didn’t feel like it. I had a bout of depression last August. We had had months of visitors and activities and then suddenly, no one. It took me awhile to admit I was depressed, but after getting my medication adjusted, I started feeling better.
Fall was filled with visitors and fun with new friends. Thanksgiving was spent with our California family and was wonderful. We started getting ready for Christmas and life was great. Until it wasn’t.
I don’t know why, but we are facing some really big challenges right now. We have both human and canine serious health issues. We also have some personal challenges we are facing.
So, I should be depressed again, but the medicine is working and I am feeling strong. This week is going to be a tough one – we are going to get answers to the challenges we are facing. I have no idea what to expect, once again I am traveling in an area where I have no map. I don’t know what knowledge I will have next week at this time that I don’t have now. I do know that I am not in control, God is, and that is how it should be.
We haven’t gone to church since we moved to California. Honestly, I don’t know if I feel comfortable in organized religion any longer. Too many issues make it hard for me to support churches and some of the hypocrisies they stand for. However, I do consider myself a Christian and I live my life according to Christian values.
I was having lunch with my sweet friend Jane a few weeks ago and we were discussing bible studies. We decided to join Bible Study Fellowship together. This is something that I have wanted to do for years. I did our first lesson yesterday, and reading the word of God and feeling His presence gave me such peace to face the week ahead. Our class meets on Wednesday, right in the middle of my tough week. Coincidence?? I think not!
We have many people praying for us. We have Jewish friends, Catholic friends, Protestant friends and friends that I don’t even know what their religion is praying for us. I treasure each and every prayer. I feel God’s presence with us and I know things will be as they should be because we are in God’s hands.
The biggest gift we got this Christmas was two full weeks with Molly. She decided to extend her stay through New Year’s and having her here was amazing. She is the glue that holds our family together. She kept us busy having fun and playing endless games of Catan and laughing with each other. I thank God every day for our amazing Molls!
If you are a praying person, we would accept any and all prayers that things work out for the best. If you aren’t a praying person, then good thoughts and positive vibes will be accepted. Stay tuned…there will be more to this story.
Dear Lori!!!! It is so interesting that you would post this blog entry today! You have been on my mind very often, and I’ve been thinking that it has been quite awhile since you have posted. You are a wonderful writer and I love the way you have been sharing. It makes me very sad to read about your human and canine issues, and especially sad about your depression!! 😥😥 Please know I WILL be praying for you and hope that you will keep us all updated! Thank you for this lovely post today!! Love and hugs!! 😘😘
Oh Nancy, thank you so much! Depression is something I have been dealing with since you have known me. It is actually much better these days, just sneaks up on me sometimes. Thank you for your prayers and friendship!❤️
I am so sorry that you are facing these challenges right now. I will be praying that you get the best news possible for each one, and that you feel God’s guidance with you whatever news you get. I am so glad that you are feeling strong. You are such an inspiration with your words and your willingness to share your story. I will be thinking visit you this week (extra) and hugs to you both. ❤️
Thank you Susan! I appreciate your kindness and prayers!